October 2010
Day 25
What I would find in your bag:
-Hello Kitty folder
-Spiral notebook
-Hello Kitty compact mirror/comb set
-A couple of pens
-Some pads&tampons
-Lotion
-Bus pass
-Wallet
-Loose change I use for lunch money
-Bits and pieces of random trash
-Pack of Stride gum
-A lighter or two
-Pack of Marlboro Smooths
-A knife
-Sharpies
-House keys
-Hand sanitizer
-Chapstick
-Hello Kitty...
I blame myself for everything so that you’re never at fault. I love you too much to ever let you feel bad so, at my own expense, I let you keep your perfect image.
Day 24
A letter to your parents:
Dad, my entire life I’ve always wondered how much better things would’ve been if you hadn’t treated my mom so shitty when you guys were married. I’ve always wondered how different I’d be and if I’d be normal. But you fucked it up. You fucked up my life. I hate you for letting go of me. I hate you for not being there. I hate you for not...
Day 23
Something you crave for a lot:
HUGSHUGSHUGS!!
I love being hugged :) Mostly by my boyfriend but I like getting hugs from other people too, as long as I like you. I love having people around me and I love to be held; it makes me feel safe and a little less alone on the inside.
Day 22
What makes you different from everyone else:
I can make Edwin smile and feel loved everyday; you can’t :3
Also, my hair and my cheeks are apparently a quality that sets me apart from people and everyone seems to love it.
Things are getting better...
The 1st quarter at school ends in a couple of days, I’m slowing pulling myself out of the horrible depression I’ve been suffering for the past month, I looked at my body today and realized that I don’t look as disgusting as I think I am, I’ve gone to school on time everyday this week, my relationship with Edwin is still as great as ever…things are looking up.
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Day 19
Nicknames you have; why do you have them: Chubbs-My bestfriend, and now boyfriend, started calling me that a couple years ago when we were having a conversation about how I need good nickname that actually sticks with me. So, he came up with Chubbs. Even tho he’s the only one who calls me that. Chubbychu-I love pokemon and I’ve got chubby cheeks. I’m Tan’s one and only...
I cried while making love tonight.
Those were the first tears of happiness I’ve shed in a very long time and it felt amazing to experience that. I’m so lucky to have someone as amazing as you.
Day 18
Plans/dreams/goals you have:
I actually have my whole life planned out but one of my biggest fears is that I’ll never be able to achieve my goals and make that life for myself. This is what I want for my life, in order:
-Graduate from high school
-Go to college and get certified as an art teacher
-Get married to Edwin
-Move to New York
-Buy my first house with Edwin
-Get a job as an...
Day 17
Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why:
I’d want to switch with Edwin. Just so I could finally know what he thinks about all day long; you know, like, figure out his thought process. I always wonder if he thinks about me the way I think about him, if he loves me as much as I love him, if he even cares about half the things I say. And although I know he loves me, and...
